My Top 5 Anime

I decided to do a top 5 anime list for no exact reason. So, here I go.

The way I decide my top 5 is through the concept of the anime, is it memorable, and does it give me feelings? Yes, I know, feelings. The last is its rewatchability.

5. Rosario + Vampire

No, no, I don’t mean that crappy anime version. Now, you might be mad and say that it’s decent, but to me, it was crap. The plot wasn’t moving… well, it was moving at a snail’s pace. The second season was worse since it decided to go off on its own story. What I hate the most is that they made this one episode focusing on Mizore, and what they came up with was her making curry and fighting curry monsters? What in the shit?

Anyway, the story of Rosario + Vampire is about a boy named Tsukune who failed his exam to go to high school. One day, his dad found a packet or so about this high school that lets people in for free without any test or anything. Tsukune takes that for granted and enroll to the high school. Unfortunately, that high school was a place for monsters. What was memorable of this anime was the fact that Tsukune was the guy who was a total wimp at the start and he becomes a complete badass as we go along the manga. He… SPOILERS! He becomes a ghoul later on and that’s what gives him this amazing power and such. Basically, he was a vampire’s bitch. And that vampire was Moka.

One thing I didn’t like from this series was the fact that it counted as a harem. Although it focuses on the relationship between Moka and Tsukune, there are four other girls who wants his delicious body. Out of all of them, my favorite character has to be Mizore. She is a yukionna and her stalkish and obsessive personality just makes me smile and giggle whenever I see her. I even have a wallpaper of her, and it’s amazing.

My all time favorite part was when they went to visit Mizore’s parents, and then my next all time favorite part is the epic kissing scene between Mizore and Kurumu (the other main character). Oh, the fangirl within me is screaming. One thing I like from the other character is Yukari, who is a 11/12 year old witch who not only wants Tsukune’s delicious body, but she also wants to have a three-way with them.

The rereadability, because the anime I’d rather not watch again, is good. I’m able to reread it, and in fact, I think I’ll start rereading this manga. I’m sorry, I’m just not a fan of the anime.

4. Clannad

Now, this may be surprising to some people. Why isn’t Clannad number one on your list? Well, I don’t know really. This has to be one of the best anime I‘ve ever watch. The relationship was so realistic! And yes, I say relationship, I never said anything about the anime being realistic. Because… I don’t know how natural purple hair and eyes, and blue hair are realistic. You can say that they’ve dyed their hair, but I think those are natural in the anime world. Besides, there’s a giant pig.

The anime was the one that made me feel feelings. Yes, I know! FEELINGS! I cried like there was no tomorrow, and I laughed ’till my cheekbones started to ache. This anime just had it all. I love KEY and what they do. And they are so sneaky. The first season was just setting up the characters and they made you laugh a lot with a few ‘aww‘ from the relationship growing between Tomoya and Nagisa. Then the second season hits and then BAM! They throw all these chopped onions at your face! AND IT BURNS!

My favorite scene had to be with Tomoya as he remembers the good time with his father. That one got to me. Not the part where his wife died, not the part where his daughter died too, but the part where he remembers his dad and starts crying. That was also the scene where he finally bond with his daughter, and I thought that was heartwarming. It wasn’t really much of a hurtful cry when I… cried, so I guess that was why it was my favorite scene. The other two scenes I mentioned hurt my brain.

Clannad gave me a favorite character and that was Tomoyo. A lot of people like Tomoyo, in fact, so many people like her that they made a spin-off game with her! Even a manga! And I cried with that short little manga too. Oh, you, KEY! Making people cry like little girls. Every tear that people shed, KEY gains at least a dollar or two. Tomoyo was a delinquent in middle school but she’s trying to make up for that by becoming the student council president. She has an amazing kicking ability (lol), and… she kicks ass 😛 Her personality is so nonchalant and violent that it makes me giggle. I love her design and I support the Tomoyo and Tomoya couple. My goodness, I swear, they did it on purpose. It’s just so funny! His name is Tomoya and her’s is Tomoyo. What the hell, man?

The art is fantastic by the way.

It’s fun to watch this anime again, and I recommend you playing the game whether you get it legally or illegally. The comedy bits of this anime never get old. And the dramatic scenes aren’t like Titanic where you cry a few times until you realize that the main female character was being a total fat-ass and she wouldn’t move over to let Leonardo on that giant door. I feel sorry for his death.

3. Code Geass

This anime also made me feel feelings! Just not the usual sad part, but more like frustration. And then sadness. I felt bad for Lelouch and all the things that he went through. I hated Suzaku for being such a total ass. Sure… Lelouch killed his potential lover, but hey, who was the dude who offered his friend to the king in order to go up the rank? Suzaku 😛 besides, it was hard for Lelouch to kill Euphemia in the first place too. For goodness sake, he was her sister! Or somewhere along that line. And his power was going out of control! D: I hate you Suzaku! You make me feel evil feelings >:L

The concept of this anime is basically the world is taken over by some kind of country or alien (in this anime, Britain, hurrah!) and then there are the rebels. I always like these type of anime. I just love rebels :3

The art is really nice and I was watching it again… uncensored, in which I didn’t know until I saw all them nipples. And also Suzaku’s ass because his suit is so frickin’ tight. My goodness I cannot express my hate for Suzaku! I just don’t like him, but I like his concept with Lelouch. They are childhood friends, and they have a different perspective on how to make the world a better place. Suzaku thinks that he can go up by rank and become the Knight of One. The Knight of One gets a piece of Japan (but they’re called Elevens) and he wants that in order to make his fellow Japanese have a better place to live in. I find that stupid anime-wise. Lelouch, on the other hand, finds that he has to make the world better for Nunally through a rebellion. Anime-wise, now that’s a good idea. Suzaku, stop being such a douchebag and a goody-goody. No, you’re not even a goody-goody, you killed your father for christ’s sake! You offered your friend in order to go up a rank! You got his memory erase! You took away his frickin‘ sister! You replaced her with a spy, you got everybody else’s memories to be erased, you got a giant group made in the school to spy on Lelouch’s activity. Kind of a bit overboard don’t you think?

I mean… what did Lelouch ever do to you? Rather than kill your potential love interest. Bitch, please! Lelouch has gone through more shit than you do. Compared to him, you were living in the lap of luxury as the Knight of Twelve… I think it was the Knight of Twelve or so. Let me see, with all the shit that he has gone through because of Suzaku, he had to kill his own sister (or sibling of some sort), he witnessed Shirley dying, his entire army turned against him, his fake brother died for his sake, and he even went down to kiss your goddamn feet Suzaku. You heartless bastard! And I am ashame of you Suzaku, you probably didn’t even get a piece of that ass anyway! Hah!

Uh… ahemone of my favorite character has to be Kallen. I don’t know, there’s something about her. Maybe it’s her character design and her two-face personality. She is a dedicated rebel and is a useful piece for Lelouch too, and she falls in love with Zero (Lelouch’s rebel appearance) later on. Besides, she has dem titties. Yup. Nobody can resist Kallen in a bunny outfit. Lol.

2. Märchen Awakens Romance

MÄR is about a boy named Ginta who has the opportunity to go into this new world because this guy named Alviss decided to summon a one-way portal to the world of MÄR-Heaven. In this world, he finds out that his weak body gained superior physical ability and clear vision (he had glasses, in the other world, he can see without his glasses). This is your typical tournament anime as Nobuyuki Anzai likes to make his anime. In MÄR-Heaven, people uses such things called ÄRM. There are many types of ÄRM, which I will never explain. Well, rather than the types are kind of like elements.

There are many favorite characters that I like in this anime. Dorothy, Candice, Rolan, and Chimera. Dorothy, being one of the heroine and the other three being the antagonists.

Starting out with Dorothy, I LOVE HER. Her character design and sly personality is amazing. So yeah, what I really love most about Dorothy is her sly personality. And I cheered at the last episode when Dorothy kissed Ginta. Like a boss. It made me so happy that I went on to reading fanfics about Dorothy and Ginta.  Oh, the days when I read fanficsew. She is one of the strongest out of the group. And in the manga, her nipple was shown when she fought with Chimera. Oh, you, anime, censoring that part. If Freezing can show nipples, why couldn’t MÄR do it? I mean, they did it in Flames of Recca… probablynot.

Rolan is my second favorite. His happy personality is pretty funny for an antagonist. Yet he is serious and was able to defeat Alviss in their first match. His weapon was pretty weird to me since he makes explosive cubes. Yeah… explosive cubes. In their second match, Rolan uses a whip, and that was a tad better than his explosive cubes. I think he grew wings at one point, maybe that might just be me. His clothe design was pretty simple yet it matched him. Rolan was a poor child who lived on stealing and such, then he was taken in by Phantom. Ever since, he became part of the Chess Pieces. A Knight, to be exact.

Candice is a sadomasochist… I think you know why I like her. She has this giant axe that she uses and her battle with either Jack or Dorothy, I can’t remember, was pretty funny. She loves Phantom, and toward the end, that made Phantom happy since it made him realize that he wasn’t all hated. That touches me. The crazy woman who relishes physical pains in a fight as pleasure loved a crazy man who was (kind of) immortal but dies anyway because Alviss wanted to stay mortal. By the way, I hate Alviss. Just letting you know that. He’s one of those angst character and I don’t like angst characters.

Chimera has a sad past with her husband and all, but oh my goodness! I love her sadistic personality! Her ÄRM are amazing! I don’t know what type they were, probably darkness… nonot darkness. Oh, it was a ghost type. Anyways, I was shocked when they revealed Chimera’s face, and the people were surprised too. Chimera never really talked, and you always think that it was a he. Then you get her past. She loved this man who was an ex-Chess Piece, they got married in secret. The villagers took him away, murdered him, and gave her the bloody ring. In the manga, they gave her his finger along with the ring. Then, they decided to torture in hopes that she’ll reveal the loctaion of the remaining Chess Pieces. Well, she escapes, but she finds out that her body was deformed. Nooo!! Her character design was what I like best. She had a mass of eyeballs on the left side of her face, horizontal stiches on the scar across her nose’s bridge, and the piercing of her chess piece (how they tell your rank) on her tongue. Her hair was spiky too. She likes to mutilate pretty girls by the way. Beware!

I recommend people to watch this, and I recommend people to watch it again.

1. Rozen Maiden

My all time favorite anime! It’s about a boy named Jun who is a shut-in, one day, he gets mail saying “Yes or no.” He circle yes and later on, a suitcase arrived. There was a doll inside and he decided to wound it. The doll becomes alive and then Jun becomes her medium. The concept of this anime is basically what you would say battle royale. Or the Hunger Games, idk. These dolls are in a game called the Alice Game. The last doll standing will become a girl of utmost beauty and purity named “Alice”, just as their creator Rozen wanted.

Of course, the manga was better. But the anime is rewatchable and it’s not bad. The manga just carried on to the next storyline. The anime sometimes did a little change, but it didn’t make up its own story. So that was good. It had a fun comical feeling to it as you watch the dolls and such. You feel for them because they are such likeable characters. I’ve watched this in elementary and to this day, I still remember all their names without looking them up… with the exception of the seventh doll. Alright, let me see. The first is Suigintou, second is Kanaria, third is Suiseiseki, fourth is Souseiseki, fifth is Shinku, sixth is Hanaichigo, and seventh is… uhKirakishou.

I like all of these characters, they’re all my favorite. I even love Jun, too. Although, if I have to pick, I’d choose Suigintou. I love her. She is the first doll created by Rozen, but she had a flaw in her design. Despite this, her love for their father was so strong that she was able to move without a Rosa Mystica and was able to use her power without a medium. Of course, Suigintou gets a Rosa Mystica of her own later on, but she also changes too. She encounters this girl who is sick and she thought Suigintou as an angel of death because of her wings. She decided to become Suigintou’s medium because whenever Suigintou uses her power, it sucks the life (or maybe just hurts her medium) out of her medium. This kind of gave Suigintou a heart as she appears to care for her medium.

My second has to be Jun. Although the anime doesn’t really explains me, or maybe it did, mind me, I watched this back in elementary; Jun had a tragic past that caused him to not want to go to school and such. Later on in the manga, as he continued to live with the Rozen Maidens, he began to think about going back to school and such. I thought his character development was amazing and it went along with the storyline. What makes me smile on the inside was the fact that his tragic past had to do with people finding out that he likes to design clothing. And that was hilarious, but sad. What made me happy was when Kanaria’s medium persuaded him to go do what he loves to do, and that was designing and making clothes. Mostly dresses I think. He made one and posted it on this one site. While the days went on without anybody bidding on it, Jun felt sad until the last minute where people just suddenly started bidding like crazy. That was a really nice scene because it made Jun realize how much people loved his dress and how they would buy his dress at a very high price. Hey, those kids might make fun of Jun for doing such girly things, but when Jun gets all the ladies with his money, they be regretting what they did. Ha!

The art is really great and the clothes design of all these Rozen Maidens were brilliant! All them frilly stuff!

Now, the rereadability and rewatchability is highly recommended. It’s fun to watch again, I love it. And I know people love it too. “How?” you might ask me. Well…

They had a goddamn effing airplane of it! Holy crap! I want to take a ride on that airplane!


A Blond Complex

In my older post called “The Mindfully Ill”, I spoke of Natasha–one of my character. Well, let me not get to her just yet. If you were to talk to me about people I ‘prefer’, I would tell you that I prefer blondes. Now, this was where Natasha came in. Like I said in the old post, I am obsessed with Natasha. She is one reason why I keep on living, and I pray to God–for once–that I’ll meet someone like her in my life.

Now you know the reason why I like blondes. Particularly female blondes with long hairs, and the type of blond is basically golden. I don’t like dyed, I like it natural. When it comes to these type, I am quite superficial. Oh, and C-cups. Gotta have those. Slim too. I should probably stop talking.

But don’t get me wrong, as much as I say that I prefer blond girls, I’m not a lesbian. No matter how many lbgt story I write, I’m not a lesbian. I’m not a closet lesbian, and I know that for sure. This might confuse you, but sexually, I’m asexual. Relationship-wise, I’m bisexual. Yeah…

This was supposed to be about my blond complex. Let me get this topic out of the way first. When I say that I’m sexually asexual, it means that I’m not interested in sex. No matter how much I talk of sex, when I am offered sex, I refuse it. And yes, it happened once… welltwice.  Maybe more. Now, relationship-wise, I am bisexual, meaning that I’m willing to be in a relationship with anyone. I reread “The Mindfully Ill” and I saw that I made my standing on me being asexual wrong. So this post was really just me correcting myself.

I’ve come to realize that I didn’t exactly want to be in a romantic relationship with Natasha, I just want to meet her and befriend her. Because all my life, I am always searching for someone I can trust. Oh, I promised you I would make this post a tad lighter than the last one. Uh…

Anyways, I have this blond who really isn’t as blond anymore but kind of is now (it’s her nickname) whom I have class for two periods. I don’t know what is wrong with me, but I just keep on staring at her head. Hahah, yeah, I know, sounds creepy. It’s just that I want to touch her hair. Now that is creepy. I swear, her hair is magical. One day it’s half-brunette and blond, the next the blond takes most of the hair territory. It’s like the two colors are having a war! And some people might say that she’s just dying her hair, but I refuse to acknowledge that! Besides, who dye their hair every week? It’s magic I tell you! She’s like Rapeunzel, except her magical power is fighting against the evil which is the brown.

I don’t know what I’m talking about anymore.

During class, I kind of notice this little thing where she looks at me. I don’t know if she does that on purpose, or if it’s because she notice that I’m obviously staring at her. We never really make eye-contact. I was hoping to spark a conversation with her one day. I regret that one time where she came up close to me and ask about trig class. I knew I should’ve taken the chances, but I just told her that I didn’t know how to do the problem… which I didn’t know how to do the problem. I think that was the only time this year that we talked to each other. I want to talk to her, yet I don’t know how to.


Sisterly Love

I haven’t written a proper blog in quite a while, so allow me to bring you back into my life.


Do you have a sister? If so, what is the relationship between you two? Are you best friends? Do you have a normal and healthy relationship with your sister? Are you always at each other’s throat? Do you hate your sister but also care for her at the same time? Do you have that hate/love relationship?

Well, for me, I think it’s more of a hate/hate relationship. And when I say that, I don’t mean me and my sister hate each other. It’s just my sister hates me only. Yet I learn so many things from her. To me, I find myself messed up in the head, and you might not know it. Most of them are due to my sister. As a child, I learn from what I saw. And now, these are the traits that I’ve gained from my sister:

Low self-esteem: I don’t have confidence in myself. I may look like it, but that’s because I’m acting in front of people. It takes me longer to actually not stutter and tear up when people are watching me with expectation. And I don’t really know if I can keep up my personality at school. It’s hard, the person I chose to be at school. There was this one time where I did my project, though I didn’t turn it in because I couldn’t handle being up there. Now, people might say that it’s just stage fright, and I do have stage fright.

  • Neurotic Guilts: I always regret every choice I make and wish I could go back in time.
  • Hypersensitivity to Criticism: The two words I hate the most that people always shove at my face are “Weird and awkward.” People might think that it’s okay for them to say that to me, when really, it hurts me a lot. All I really wanted was to be normal, to have people who understand me and care about me.
  • Envy: I envy the people at school for they are always having a bright smile on their face. Especially my sister. They are outgoing, they have people who actually care for them.
  • Pessimism: Everyday I wake up, thinking that something bad might happen to me today. I always have a negative outlook on something first before I try to think of the good things about the situation.
  • Willing to Please Others: My sister is always bossing me around like any older siblings do, and I always follow what she orders. I am afraid that she might hit me or be dissatisfied with me. I try my best to do what she asks, even if sometimes her mutters are so low that I can’t even hear her. She gets mad at me easily, and that makes me extremely sad. All I ever wanted from her was respect.

Two-Face: I understand that my sister had a two face personality. When she’s with her friends, she’s smiling and having fun. She’s in a happy mood and likes to joke around a lot. However, when she is alone with me, her eyes are always averting me. She tends to frown and raise her tone of voice at me. Sometimes she sneer and calls me, “a fucking idiot.” So, as a child, I took that from her and did what she did, expect it was with almost anybody. If I was with people, I was cheery, usually making jokes and all that. When I’m alone somewhere, I tend to be a bit more aggressive and unkind toward others (usually strangers or people I dislike).

  • The Way of Bullying: I have a bully trait. Like how my sister picks on me, I did the same. Hey, I was a kid learning. I like to take advantage of any kind of situation and put it in my palm. I like to see other people suffer because I know that they don’t feel the same pain as I do. In elementary, I bullied this girl with a boy I knew. We shouted names at her, threw rocks. And to me, I thought it was fun to be in the position of the person who caused the pain and not the other way. Well, I’m still a bully now. I just don’t fling rocks or throw punches. Can I say that I’m proud of what I do? No, but will I stop? No. Why? Because it keeps me from falling apart, and the fun is too much.


I think there might be more. I have just forgotten them. I have short-term memories, and I know I didn’t get that from my sister. That’s from my dad. I’ll add them in later on as my memory reassemble itself. Rather than that, I think I’ll go on to a new topic. Not on this post though. Trust me on this, the next post will be lighter :]

This is a Working Title – Prologue

I never knew she existed until my third year here. It was the same for her. Two years without us realizing each other’s presence. It wasn’t a surprise, really. The school was large and there was no time to meet everybody here. We had two classes together, although we never really talked. It was the time when I saved her from drowning that we finally befriended each other.

Was it a coincidence that I was the one who saved her? Nobody was fast enough anyway. And what kind of person joined a pool party when they couldn’t even swim? Her, I supposed.

It was a junior trip to New York. There happened to be a pool in the hotel we were in and some people knew about it. They brought swimsuits with them and held a party after curfew. She happened to be one of them. Her friends were bothering her about it. I knew about the party, but I didn’t exactly want to go.

I did sneak a peek.

The time was so perfect too. The first thing I noticed was her with her dirty blond hair. She wore a pink swimsuit with a few white flower patterns here and there. Eli was ready, but she wasn’t going to dive into the pool. She dipped her feet in the water occasionally. The rest of her time, she wandered about the pool. Some of the other juniors were messing around, and pushed one of their friends. This caused the boy who was pushed to bump into Eli and shoved her into the pool.

People’s reaction was to laugh, although they got a tad worried after a few seconds. Yet the people in the pool didn’t even help her. And that pissed me off.

I wore a large fur jacket at the time, and it weighed me down. Throwing it to the floor, I quickly dashed to the pool and plunged in. As expected, she was at the bottom, hardly struggling. To be honest, I wasn’t a very good swimmer myself. But I managed, barely. I was almost out of breath myself when I reached the surface. Bringing her up to the dry ground, the girl was unconscious. I checked by slapping her cheeks a few times. Not that hard, though. It was a deep pool and it took me at least a minute or so to swim back up. Then again, it was partially her fault also for dragging me. I shouldn’t be blaming her.

Eli wasn’t breathing, waters in her lungs. Of course, nobody was willing to perform CPR. Even if somebody’s life was on the line… almost. Either way, it didn’t matter. I was here. If only I could remember how to do CPR. Everybody was watching me, so I had to say, “Haven’t any of you idiots called the teachers or the staffs?”

With that, I had insurance just in case I failed. I didn’t know the rhythm I had to go on or how many beats. I had never done this before, and I had never learned it. But there will always be a first time, right?

I started out in a fast pace. One, two, three. I pumped hard and rapidly on her chest. One, two, three. Come on, Talia, haven’t you seen any kinds of movies that involve things like this? Probably not. I haven’t seen a movie in a year. After a few for pumps, I pinched her nose, raised her chin, and blew into her mouth. Twice. A few more should do.

            One more push, and luckily, water spurted out. She coughed, and sat up. With a sigh, I glanced around to see if any teacher was here, or at least anybody coming in to help. Nobody still. Oh, well. I picked her up like a princess, making her blush a bit. “W—what are you doing?”

“Which room are you in?”

She was denying me, trying to get off, and yet her arms were around me. Funny. In the end, she gave up since she didn’t want to stay here anymore, and whispered her room number.

Nothing special really happened after that, you should already know the rest anyway. If you didn’t, let me sum it up for you. I brought her back to her room, her head dug into my chest the entire time. She thanked me, and I went back to my room. I was leaving wet footprints still, since I didn’t really dry up or anything like that. The next day, I was greeted by her. I supposed that was where we really started conversing with each other.

Amanda Todd

So… I watched her video today, and gosh do I feel sad. Of course, I do mean for her, but also for the kids who bullied her. It’s amazing (to me) on how bullies can come up with such things. Or rather, it’s amazing on how kids can think of such things.

To start this off, it is not her fault. She is not to blame. The suicide victim is never to be blamed. It might be a mistake that she made, but a mistake is something that you can step over. The only thing that stood in her way was the guy who was blackmailing her. Like she had said, she just wanted to move on. And what pisses me off the most is that her friends left her just because of that mistake. It is extremely stupid, and this is one reason why I never trust anybody. However, if somebody made a stupid mistake, I will still be their friend. I guess it’s a bit of human nature to not want to hang out with the freaks. Then again, I am a freak myself. It was just a mistake, and to exploit that mistake is a terrible thing.

I can’t really say anything from the victim’s point of view for I was never a victim. Sad to say, I was on the other end of the stick. It was a time when I tried to make myself feel better by picking on somebody, although it didn’t exactly help as I thought it would.

Another thing that made me extremely angry was the fact that somebody posted up a comment such as: “Only retards commit suicide. Kids should just get over it. All you have to do is survive four years of high school and that’s it. This is nothing compared to the real world.”

I don’t really know what to say, but… I actually corrected that phrase because the original comment had such terrible punctuation and spelling error. What I find stupid is how you can just go and say, “Get over it.”

It’s like telling someone to “get over” what they don’t like to do. You can’t force somebody to not dislike something and just saying it doesn’t help. Depression is different for every human. Not everybody is courageous. Someone who had gotten over depression and has gotten strong cannot tell other people to “get over it” because that is a bunch of balony. If everybody had the courage to stand up for themselves, then maybe the world could be a better place (or worse, it depends what you’re standing up for).

The people who say that Amanda Todd got what she deserve is… I don’t even know what to call them. Like I said before, it was a mistake (a huge one at that) but it’s not going to immobilize you for the rest of your life. But the exploitation of your mistake (by others) can.

Throughout the entire video, I imagined her pain and suffering as she had to transfer from school to school. What hurt me the most is her second to last card when she said that she had nobody. It got me there.

And for the closing: What I find the most disgusting is the people around me (mainly my family) who does not care. I know that it doesn’t have to do with my family and I don’t even know who she is. But I share her loneliness, and I feel this connection with her. It’s a harsh world when nobody cares about you. I suppose that’s one of my reasons on why I always thought of killing myself. Who would even care? But that’s another subject I’ll talk about in the future.

EDIT: I forced myself to watch the video again, and come to realize that she made a few more mistakes. I don’t know if I should really blame her, because I’m trying to think through her mind. If I was a high school girl who was being pressured (possibly, or just being flattered too much. Or just being quite the airhead) to flash a guy and then that guy blackmails me, I’d be sad/mad. All my friends leave me and I am alone, loneliness kick in. Yet I don’t want to fight it, I just want to move on, but the people don’t want me to move on, making this worse. All of the sudden, one of my old guy friend comes around and invites me to a vacation (or that his girlfriend was on vacation, don’t really know), and I know (or did I?) that he had a girlfriend yet I took it anyway. Maybe I was looking for some kind of attention. He was somebody who talked (or texted) to me, saying that he liked me. Because of the situation I’m in, I think I’ve started to grow feelings for him.

And my goodness, when she said that she lied and that it was all her ideas, that was courageous of her since she didn’t want to hurt him also. Although it was terrible knowing that he was just using her after all. She knew that he had a girlfriend, but she fell for his tricks because he was one of the only people who actually talked to her. Amanda took all the blame, and the guy only took it for granted.

By the way, where the hell was her family during all this?